that shitty feeling when you wanna go out & be social, but once you’re out, all you wanna do is be back at home
(Source: sarajxne, via distraction)
I know I have to recover, but I'm scared. In fact, I'm terrified. Because for me recovery means ridding yourself of the sadness. And I want that more than anything, I really do. But if I were to rid myself entirely of the sadness that has plagued me for three years, it'd almost be like brushing it off as if it never meant anything. As if it was just a phase and I've moved on now, that part of me is done. But I feel like sadness is all I know and ridding myself of it would kill what's left of me.